Sunday, June 30, 2013

Are You Ready For Love, Reflections, Marriage

I don't know if you have watched any of "Are You Ready For Love". What I do know is that any reality show that I've watched, heard of, listened to, or read about usually make me laugh. Now, I'm one of those girls that has never been into reality shows. ( My sister Laura can vouch for me on this. Ok wait, Yes, I did have a very short love affair with America's Next Top Model) I'm sorry, I know, they are so fun and blah blah blah. They are silly!!

Do you feel like yourself in front of a camera?? I know that I don't. Do you think your REAL self comes across in about 9 weeks of knowing someone? I know that I don't. Can you really know someone in 9 weeks?? I know that you can't. Does it feel natural to have to compete for a person's attention or affection with other people.  NO. . No it doesn't. I've had to do that in past relationships and I can tell you, it is awful. It can drive you crazy. Feeling strongly about someone and competing with someone else for their attention can bring out a side of you that you never knew existed. It is an ugly (as my wonderful grandmother would say) transformation. These people may think they are making it easier to find love but in all reality they are making it much, much harder. Silly girls!

 I searched out these people to see if they had stayed together after the show and I was greatly disappointed. Only 1 couple out of the 3 were still together. It's just sad.

On to a totally different topic. I spent some time reflecting this week while on a mini-vacation. (We were house sitting) Here are some of the main thoughts:

1. I exist only because God wants me to. If God "forgot" about me, even for just a moment, I would cease to exist.

2. I love this song.

3. I realized shortly after I found out that I was expecting that it was my duty to help my son to get to Heaven. That is a huge job. I mean, the biggest. It's a pretty intimidating thought. After my son was born, I realized, that God gave me him to not only help him get to Heaven but in helping him, it is helping me. This really helps put family into perspective. As a married person my vocation is to help my spouse and my children get to Heaven. I do this because I love them. My proof of love for them is my desire for good for them, and the ultimate good is God.
Marriage is really great. Seriously. I love being married. Everyone warned me that the first year would be the hardest. Well, next Saturday, it will have been one year. I think all of those people who thought they were being helpful in "warning" us about the first year of marriage must not have been very happy. I think that this year, though we have had our ups and downs just like any relationship, has been fantastic! But, that will be a post for next week!


Tuesday, June 18, 2013

God is in Control

I have discovered that I am TERRIBLE at nursing while using a cover. It doesn't matter if it is a fancy Uddercover that is made so I can see my son while he is nursing or a blanket over that side of me. I have bad aim when it comes to getting the mechanics to work right. My poor son just flails underneath the covering and I look like a rookie to everyone around me. How do so many women make it look so easy?? Maybe it's just me.
                                                          This looks so easy, Right?!?

How is it that baby nails grow so FAST?? I swear I have to cut them every two days so he doesn't scratch himself or me!

My little man is growing so fast. This kid seems to get longer everyday. He is over 12lbs now and is so funny with all of his different facial expressions.

The other morning my husband cooked breakfast for us. He did an amazing job! He made eggs, venison bacon ( which I didn't know exsisted but is SO yummy! I never thought I would say this phrase but it may be better than regular bacon!), and hashbrowns! He even brought me a glass of orange juice! So thoughful! He really is a better cook than I am.

This week my goal has been to pray & reflect on: trusting God in the small things as well as the big things. I feel like in my life I have always had a desire to grow in my faith and to pursue it. There were times when I didn't know my faith as well as I should ( I still don't know enough) and times I ignored my faith.  In high school with the help of some amazing people, I found the courage to throw myself into my faith. My prayer life has had it's ups and downs. There are some times that I have felt very connected to my prayer life and other times that I struggle to even thank God for my day. I think that these are normal in the growing process. Since becoming a mother I have found that I have to rely on God so much more than I ever have before. This week I have made it a priority to not worry as much. ( I am very much a worrier) When I feel myself start to worry about something, I step back mentally and remind myself that God is in control. Say a short prayer. Let go. Move on.

Why is it so hard for me to remember to spray pans before I put what I'm baking into them? Yesterday I made some corn bread to go with some soup my husband had made. As I was cutting into it, he walked into the kitchen, saw that I was struggling and said "Did you spray the pan"? Of course I didn't. I didn't even THINK about it. I think I may put a sticky note on the oven door that says. . "Did you spray the pan yet?"

Monday, June 17, 2013

A New Adventure

Today I am beginning a new adventure. This blog. I decided to name this blog Wine, Chocolate, and Babies because well, I love wine, chocolate and my baby (God-willing, there will be more and the plurual will make more sense). I am hoping to posts ramblings about motherhood, married life, my growth spiritually, and possibly some recipe's or more realistically, cooking disasters. For my sake, I am setting up some rules for myself.

1.  Post a least once a week.
2. No complaning.

Ok, maybe two rules is enough for now. I may possibly amend them at a later time.